the new me.and away with the old us.

__is this the right time?

nothings ever seemed so ______..geez,i cant even find the fucking word for it?it sucks to be speechless?!!im listening to this song,same ground by kitchie nadal.but my favourite by her,is "bulong".i love that song!!its really nice..its so what i feel right now.she's filipino, and she gorgeous.heh.its in the blood i tell you!!hahaha.if you now what i mean..but i wont be thick skinned.im nowhere near her la..hahahs.

well,life's been a real bitch.i cant emphasize enough how hard its been.leaving behind so much behind and acting like it doesnt matter,when it actually does mean the fucking world to me??i guess thats how life is aye?kills you from inside.it jus eats you up slowly or smth.it makes me sick k.hai.oh mother,and i have to say that when it gets all better,smths bound to happen again,agree?hah.fuckshit's happening everyday.geez..

alrite,enough abt my screw hole.school's been very shitty since i came back from the performance in brunei..but i guess slowly things will get better?i cant stop praying that god will work everything out soon.heh.well,i watched drumline[vcd] today.fuck,it was smokin'!!!!!i LOVED it alrite.so my type of movie!and i watched movies at mabel's yesterday,watch "cheaper by the dozen" and watched "the notebook" half way.."the notebook" is SO romantic!!!!!!!but i only got to watch the first disc..i cant wait to watch the secind one!!hehee.

hmm.i guess that's it for tonight..love to all!!i love my lollipopp!!!-sends BIG chess hugs to you!! :]ciao.

"i wont be this way for long.gotta get you outta my head"